
I am not quite sure when or how it started, but I think I may have been contaminated by a neural virus… Brief … short-circuits I guess? Perhaps I’ve been overworking my neural synapses…
*Bzzzt*

“Micheal, come eat. Quit with that silly nonsense and come to the table.” my mother said. She was referring to my plans to open a small shop on our station. She asked me curiously what I planned to do or sell and I told her. “Micheal! Have you forgotten? We must never venture to the surface of these planets… Do you not remember your history lessons? Remember how we came to New Eden? Do you not remember WHY?” she scolded. “Destruction lies within our hands, we destroyed our worlds and this is our punishment. If I hear you utter one more word about this, I’ll set your father to you.” She knew how to shut me up quickly. There was no person I feared more than my father.
*Bzzzt*
Just like that… Flashbacks mostly, but occassionally, I see something I can’t explain. I haven’t left a log in a while because I was worried that if I was indeed somehow contaminated that I might contaminate the system. The last thing I need right now is people to start accusing me of cyber-terrorism. There is too much blood on my hands at this station as is. Planeteers as I call them, seem to be a dime a dozen now… And nobody misses a dime when they drop one out of a pocket full of change. However, if you drop too much change, you begin to notice you’re missing something.
I’ve kept to a low profile these days. Even though Concord has no rule out here, there is still a force to be reckoned with, the inhabitants of the region. I’ve heard them referred to as blood-thirsty, but I disagree. Out here, it’s a matter of survival not a thirst to kill. Not for most anyway.
Sadly, the markets here have begun to become flooded by the planetary goods brought from the worlds below us. I have a strict regiment of what I consume now to avoid touching planet goods, but sadly that has begun to shrink as well. I may have to
*Bzzzzzzt*

“This is Channel 5 News reporter Takahashi Niro reporting.
The sky is a ruddy red from the dust kicked up by the massive exodus of it’s inhabitants. This already fragile eco-system has begun to fail. What little water this planet held has already begun to dry up. The flora and fauna have begun to mutate in what can only be described as… destructive ways. Certain trees have begun to expel noxious gasses that harm not only the increasingly sparse wildlife around them, but have begun to kill off neighboring plants as well. When asked, many of the fleeing inhabitants have no clue where they will go. They will look for hospitable conditions on neighboring planets. This reporter however, fears this is just the beginning..”
*Bzzzzt*
I’m not sure where, or even when that was… Weirdly enough, I see these visions, or flashbacks, or… hell. Maybe I’m beginning to go crazy. Maybe these are some side-effect of some of the boosters I’ve taken. Never the less…. when they happen, even flashbacks of my past, it’s almost as if I’m watching them on television. Funny enough considering the last was of a television report, but …
My mind has become so muddled. I am a Child of Heaven. I wield Destruction as my weapon, and leave a wake of hysteria behind me… Sometimes, I sit in my ship cloaked as far away from every possible signature I can find. Then, in the silence of space, I try to unravel this mess in my brain. Reality, dreams, fantasy, history… It’s almost as if it’s a maze that I’ve got to find my way through, but it puzzles me.
I have a feeling that I need to find my way through this Muzzled Paze if I ever want to have a semblance of peace in my life.





